Who I am and What I Want to be (JOURNAL)

The date I wrote this "10th GRADE JOURNAL"

I’m vidya, 15 years old. I was born in Bondowoso on 24 February 1996. Actually, it’s hard for me to express who I am. But, I’ll try.

In ESL class, Mrs. Diah gave me a piece of paper that consists of some question. I should answer that question and each answer choice have different score. Then, the score will define me, in what side I should belong to. And the result is I include in half-positive side. Well, I agree with that, because I have some positive and negative side. For positive side, I’m a girl that really easy to forgive someone faults, I think I’m loyal and sometimes I can make my friend laugh with my foolish joke. For the negative side, I’m a pessimistic girl, I often can’t believe in my self for doing something that need big responsibility. But, right know, I just knew that I can do it. For example in get Sampoerna Academy scholarship. I believe that I can get it, and finally what? Finally I really get it. The other negative side of me is I’m very easy to cry. I cry to express my anger and my sadness. Fortunately, I have a lot of friends that understand me. They are including into the top five worth thing for me.

Here they are…

1.      God

2.      Parents (Family)

3.      Best Friend

4.      Teacher

5.      Friend

Right now, I live with a lot of friends in dorm, although it is very hard, but I like to live there. I can learn many things about life in this dorm. I just realized that, Life without my parents is really hard. But, I should survive. In this dorm, I learn more about share, discipline, respect and thankful. I’m sure that little by little, my negative side will be gone. Such now, I can believe in my self, and I can hold my tears to fall down, although, sometimes I still can’t do that. I can be more discipline; I always have plan for the thing what to do. But, it is still hard to realize it. hehe ^^v.

Well, with all negative and positive side that I have, I still do my best to reach my goals. My goals are… be a good girl, be a good Muslim, be a good friend, be a good leader, be a good student. If you ask me which one I have reached. My answer is NOTHING. Hahaha. I mean that all those things still in the process. So, sometimes I can be a good friend and sometimes I can’t control my self.

Beside those goals, I have the other want. But, it’s can change every time. Until now, I want to be a tax committee or a dentist.  But, tomorrow that wants may be change. May be tomorrow I want to be an English teacher, the next day I want to be a businesswoman or something else. I hope, I can reach my goals first. Because I think, if all my goals have reached, it will make me easier to get my want. Amen.

Have some sentences that I use for motivate my self, like a cheer for me. I often said it when I try to make my self calm down. Here they are…

“The day just started, it just the beginning.”

“Every day is hard, but every day will be past.”

“Do something important, forget the useless one.”

“Believe in God, Believe in you.”

Actually, I just want to tell you that, Vidya today is not same with Vidya in 2 months ago.